muscle & bone tenssssing relentless –
skin stretcccccched
joints mangled
brain dis-shev_om-bu__lated
([°}{°] _questioning never stops
( ‹ \ _questioning questions
\~~` _gaslighting agitating
¬_˘ _¬ earrrrritating – earthheadquaches cranium cracked stretched beyond recognizable limit
∆ alien forms are
Ï familiar
˘ not foreign
tussled hair eyes limbs – broken spirit bro_ken will frac||tured friendships multiple mishaps per minute or mmm… but it doesn’t taste good :\
chocolate & wine & whiskey & gin & vodka for filling flesh wounds & assuaging more deeply disturbing soul suffocating shankings -> always expected… yet never ready for the moments -+-+ the moments, so many moments, one long moment, it comes in waves momentous waves ~>~>~> abrupt & pungent fed by each breath in &
each breath out &
all breath everywhere – no one knows because they can’t know • • • • • • • • • it’s not for knowing if you haven’t lived it
_____intimately ______intensely ___all consuming ∫_bending ¬_breaking
∫∫_bending ¬¬_breaking
∫∫∫_bending ¬¬¬_breaking
∫∫∫∫_bending
¬¬¬¬_breaking
|\___ for broke
language has not found a word
a phrase a book detailed enough to properly explain, to break down, to disassemble and reassemble – reverse engineer the feels, ª§ª§ª§ emotions,
¿•∏δ„ı˜Â¸ª§§§ confusion
Eeyore is sad
depressed
downtrodden
eternal pessimist
living the melancholonical life
it is hard being a donkey who’s tail falls off, the world doesn’t know the struggles of living in the shadows of thoroughbreds with strange names, cute bears, smart owls, and clever rabbits, all more appealing to a child’s eye, all more retailable for retailing real-Taylors — Someone says, “he’s like Eeyore – always with a frown”.
head down, eyes glossed, smiles scared away, far far away below the cold waters –
brain matters draped heavily over back of rocking chair, tilting • down • back • and • to the • left
not lurching, straining
weight of the world affixed
to vagus – medulla labored
heart Bradied a Bunch cardiac stasis performing life-support in slow-mo,
no fucks to give – breath
comes — or not
aorta sputters, coughs out matter of facts! Before Kidney punches deep into the recess of loneliness and squid posterior – depression rages against an onslaught of bromidal joy
